a weird bubble

right now in my life i feel like im in a bubble. a bubble of confusion and loneliness. i really dont understand whats going on. i wish i knew my life plans and what i am supposed to do with it. here is something else i want to get off my chest. why is it so hard to spend time with God? am i a bad person/christian for not taking time out of my day to just thank him?...yes i am. i know this but yet i do nothing about it. maybe this is why i feel trapped in a bubble. im pathetic.