1.29.09

my father is a very intelligent man, and is full of great advice. tonight i just had some chill time with him and he talked me through some situations happening in my life. he really poured into me and believes in me. i love him so much. when i look back on today, if i ever do, the conversations i had with siick is what im going to remember. thanks dad so much even though mom will be the only one to read and comment on this blog.

1.27.09

it is 10 p.m. and i have all this energy. im hungry, maybe for food, but then again maybe not. i have a feeling this blog is gonna be just a waste of time and of you reading it. but all the well- i continue to type.

i have been on the world wide web a lot lately. twitter/facebook/blogger/etc. you know the nerd in me is showing now. i find all these sites resourceful in learning things about people and just random info. also i can let people learn random things about me on these sites as well. oh how much i love the technology of todays world.


all hope is lost with this post...i will now abandon it.

much love,
tres

1.26.09

as you see i am sticking with the date title, in case you read my last blog.

where to begin where to begin...

hear we go...come with me and understand my heart

almost there...

...

alrite so i want to make an impact in my community and in the world (cliche right?) but i seriously do. i want to make a difference, set an example, and live the life paul speaks of, even though its hard. i want to fight the fight and finish the race. take this scripture for example...

2 Timothy 4:7 (The Message)

6-8You take over. I'm about to die, my life an offering on God's altar. This is the only race worth running. I've run hard right to the finish, believed all the way. All that's left now is the shouting—God's applause!

wow! its the only race worth running?! my life an offering on God's altar? intense. not just that paul was about to die did he say that, but since coming to christ he devoted his life. im in a point now in my life where i must take over. for so long i have had my father and brent to help me spiritually when i was confused/didnt understand/mad.etc. now i have to do these things on my own a.k.a. grow up spiritually. im hungry for it and excited. i just had to get this out of me and onto something and blogger just so happened to be the place.

i want to lead, im loving being a youth leader for FOCUS. i cant wait for the day, whenever it may be, to lead youth myself. this being said i am just gonna come out and say it to whoever does not know what i want to do with my life, or may have questions on what i want to do with it. i want to be a youth pastor, its not just my desire, i believe God has placed this in my life. i have the heart for it.i just want teenagers to fall in love with God the way i have, live like jesus lived, and love like jesus loved.

i dont know why i got so spiritual tonight, but hey sometimes i need to.

much love,
tres

1.20.09

no this is not a post about obama. this is just simply a post that i could not think of a better name for. i thnk i am going to start titling all my entries by just dates. anyways as i posted in the previous blog i am crazy in love with a God that only loves me because he wants to. thats beside the point i just want to say that since brent has become youth pastor we have not got to hang out much. i understand this but dang i miss hanging out with him. also i wish josh pospy could come home more and hang out with them fellas like old times...pre team reno. well thats enough of me being a girl about missing my boys. also just for a shout out kgaysta you're awesome and fun talk to, even if you are a racist or depressed sometimes. i have an idea for you...SMILE and LAUGH wink. i love everyone and God's love is real.

-tres

finally

i feel joy in my life and this world. for some time now i have felt useless and pathetic. i was trapped and lost. i found the love that i lost. the love i have always known but have recently been searching for. the God that created millions of galaxies in this huge universe took time to know the true me, and why? because he is simply God. that is the only answer i can give you because in the bible it says that God does things to please him. who am i to question God? so that is the only answer i can give you. this God that has no reason whatsoever to forgive me, listen to me, love me...does all of these things only because it pleases him. i am truly amazed by this. i am truly in love.